have i turn into an arrogant person?

I put myself high above the cliff in past weeks. in terms of almost everything. I lack on searching for You, Father, and let myself drown into proudness.

everything look well and extremely nice on the surface, but rotten in the inside. to be frank, if all of these graces made me far away from You, please take it away. I like what you permit me to enjoy, I thanked all the gifts You have given me. But I don’t like how it further me from You.

I started to get angry and pissed easily, and I let my guard down. I don’t like what I become.

So please, Lord..save me.