not in doubt of You, of course, Lord…in doubt with my heart i am.

Lately, i have crush with someone. at least i think i’m in crush with him. he’s funny, he’s smart, he’s cute, and lovely. yet i don’t know if he knows You already. that is the problem.

i feel like afraid having crush with him. I’m not sure if i have courage to like him too much. some friends that realized my feeling unto him gave me suggestions already. from being passive until me being aggressive to get his attention for my feeling. (i’m not into their suggestions in anyway. lol)

i have my own ideal guy so far. regardless his appearance, i like a guy who makes the first move (yes, i’m conventional), smart, have the ability to cook, and able to make me laugh. but most of all, i like a guy who falls for You.

i don’t know if my current crush have this capability of knowing You like i do (i know he has the other capabilities :D). i am clueless, frankly because I don’t know what should i do with my feeling. it’s not that i start to think about this guy more than i think of You everyday, it’s just..it’s been a longtime for me since i have a crush, and it’s pretty confusing.

now i sound like a teenager, lol.

what should i do? people keep giving me suggestion, but the answers are just stuff that i can find in books and articles. i haven’t found my answer for this yet, please help me.

sincerely,
your daughter