life’s not all joyful and happy
have you ever feel like your friends are all getting further from you? like they have their own pack and you’re not even counted as one of theirs.
i had actually, and that memory wasn’t the one that i fond. i am feeling it right now, too.
i don’t want to start the kind of thought ‘what did i do wrong’ whatsoever.. i don’t want to blame my self or them.
it’s just..i feel like pulling myself from them, to protect my feeling. but on the other hand, it’s a bit scary to be lonely.
i just don’t feel loved.
i have my flaws. they’re not nice (which is why they are called flaws). i don’t expect people to embrace my flaws, it would be too much of a wish. but i do hope that they could. for that’s a friend indeed.
well, i think i put too much of happiness on friends. should pull the feeling a little more.
but thank you, Lord. thanks for all the graces.
